The fairytale has turned into a nightmare.
I'll go for broke. Swim faster. It's not going to be easy - this whole thing was never going to be easy.
When I started this I wanted to get back in the pool, I wanted to race and I wanted to go to the Olympics. I still want to do all of those things.
I'm more comfortable knowing that, chances are, I'm going to fail at this. I've become comfortable with that.
For myself, losing is not coming second. It's getting out of the water knowing you could have done better. For myself, I have won every race I've been in.